cry baby cry

LEMBIK GILER

BENYER NYER

EIUWHH..

menangis, benyer, cembeng, crying.

lately, there's  a lot of things came up, playing with my emotion.

Family, homesick, studies, surviving medicine, friends, heartbreak and abandonment hmm. 

last Monday, i just got slapped on my face

haha, serious, i asked kina to slap me on the face, and she really slapped me pretty hard.

And now, I'm wide awake. masih terngiang2 wave lempang ituu

*sure da lama sangat tahan nk lempang aku, lol* 

Its been pretty long i haven't cry. I rarely cry, and that day, i cried a river. 

Reality hits me darn hard.

i cried in public that time.  and i said to myself over and over again

'stop it timahh, lembiknya, lembiknya nangis'

i cried like this baby, penuh perasaan tapi masih maintain comel

I grew up with a perception that cry, sadness, grief are clinical manifestation of weakness. For those who cried, they are weak people. I'm not the only one thinking such way. we lived in this kind of reality. we're been brought up in such society. I'm adapted to this kind of perception. Agree or not, most of us, tend to suppress our grieve on our own, and hide as best as we could, and it is more chronic in men. Most of men have a firm perception that its just not manly enough to cry in front of people because it shows how weak you are.
Yup,  kengkononnya ego.
n i'm ego liddat

Reflecting the stories of one of the most popular companian of Muhammad saw, Umar Alkhattab ra, hmmm believe it or not, he was very known for his crying. He is one of the most manly man i've known in history through his inspiring and admirable stories. He is unstoppable, his bravery was undeniable, he was feared by the enemies because of his strength and his powerful influence during that times was inexplicable. He is the man for humanity. Everyone well aware how strong Saidina Umar ra and everyone well aware that he cried a lot, reminiscing his past and fear towards Allah, begging for forgiveness. He cried.

Umar cried a lot, so do we call him a weak man?

And those tears should be comforted for in him is not weakness, 

but unbelievable strength.

And...

We cry over pain. 

Sometimes i wondered, why did I cry over certain things. 

now i got my answers.

dear friends,

 pain is a pointer to our attachments. 

We're attached to family, friends, love, eager to studies and achieve good grades in exam and so many things that adhere to our hearts.
If anyone hurt our family or friends, we'll be sad
heartbreaking in love, we'll be sad
fail in studies, we'll be sad
or someone that we idolized died/hurt, we'll be sad

That which makes us cry, that which causes us most pain is where our false attachments lie. And it is those things which we are attached to as we should only be attached to Allah which become barriers on our path to God. But the pain itself is what makes the false attachment evident. 

The pain creates a condition in our life that we seek to change, and if there is anything about our condition that we don’t like, there is a divine formula to change it.
God says: “Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.”
(Qur’an, 13:11)

hmm

something for me to ponder,

do I cry over Allah?

do I cry seeing our brother and sisters killed in Palestine, Syria etc

hmm

*lempang diri sendiri laju2*

dear friends,

tears are the dewdrops of solace. It melts away the hard rocks of difficulties. In sorrowful moments, when we cry in front of our close ones telling everything, or when hearing the consoling words from them, the solace we feel would be incomparable. Not in front of many, our eyes will get filled. We do so because we will have that freedom with them. They will be a fresh rain of solace with a single word, ‘don’t cry….’. Such relationships are the good fortunes and light of this life.
lepas tu banjir!! haha

When your heart is breaking and your pain makes you fail, 

Remember just remember Allah sees it all
Tears flow when we remember how much Allah has blessed us with and how much we disobey Him. We can never repay Allah for everything we have, yet we still blatantly commit sins both big and small: whether it's backbiting, hurting other human beings, not standing up for the truth, treating our family badly, lying, doing good deeds to show off, cheating, etc.

Allah opens ways out of problems for us, easing our burdens. Yet, we still disobey Him and take His Mercy for granted.

and as we all know about this hadith 

Abu Hurayrah  reported that the Messenger of Allaah  said: 
"One who weeps out of fear of Allaah, will not enter the Hell till milk returns back in the udder; and the dust raised on account of fighting in the path of Allaah and the smoke of Hell will never exist together". [At-Tirmithi].

asyik ketawa gelap hati,
sesekali nangis okay ape,
when was the last time you cried like a baby?