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Ayah : Inspiration through his dedication and perspiration.

if you ever wonder whether i am more like my mother or father, i would say, it would be clear to see that i am more like my dad. He has laid a solid foundation of character and personality in my life. Ayah is a kind man, more outspoken, hilarious , high spirited, positive minded, laughed so hard when he found something funny.  and his striking character is, he is a work-a-holic. He will go out for work before the sun came up and worked until after dark.  ok, i would say, i only inherited 10% of his traits. 

My dad is obviously more vocal and loves to share his thoughts. Growing up in the 1950's, ayah would continuously discuss around the dinner table about our life future plan. My dad constantly reinforced the importance of higher education to his family. He was brought up from a tough background, atuk and wan were rubber  tapper in Gemencheh. He used to tell us stories on our way to kampung Rokan about how life was pretty tough during that old time. Even though we heard about the stories over and over again, it never fails to boost my motivation to be better. And it is always fun to hear his tales the way he remembers them. 

sebelum fly. adoi ayah suka wt gmbar cemni =='

i would say i'm a bit shy to express my feelings to my dad. I've caused him so much of troubles when I was a teenager, which i'm not proud of doing it. I wish i could rewind time and fixed things as the way I've wanted. But, Ayah is always there fixing things that I've messed up with. He was my saviour haha. kesian ayah! 

Tulah, sape suro dulu nakal2 *cubit diri sendiri*

I am so sorry for my misbehave ayah. 

Ayah worked in education field almost 3 decades. If i am not his daughter or just an outsider, i would still say that ayah is a true teacher. Now he is the Principal of SMK Rahmat in Melaka. He devoted himself for every school he worked in. He'll make sure that he would be the first person to be at school early in the morning. So everyday he woke up at 5, and start driving  at 6am, no matter how tired he was the night before. He used to bring us to his school late at night, and asked our opinion of what can be done for the betterment of the students. Well of course, we're not the experts, but it really shows his enthusiasm in what he is doing. One of my friend's brother told me that Ayah was a well-respected man, and he was known for his  strict discipline enforcement at school. Recently, i received his text saying that he was rewarded for his excellent performance award. Alhamdulillah. Congrats ayah!! 

At home, ayah is so strict on us when it comes to solat, studies, and doing house course. 

I used to wake up quite late during school holidays or weekends (tipu la kalau korang tak pernah buat) lol. But whenever i heard he said 'KAKCIK,BANGUN!' i will jump off the bed like a ninja!! LOL. yeah i know its like a magic. His deep-sharp voice is my best alarm to wake me up. kat sini pasang 6 alarm pun tak menjamin bangun ke tak. haha

there are so many things, wonderful things that ayah did and thanks is just not good enough to repay all the things he has done for our family. Like tiny seedlings you have cared, pampered and loved us. A support in hard times and an all time inspiration, you've taught us the essence of life.

and today, on your 55th birthday, 18th May 1958, the day that my proudly father, Zulkapli Othman was born.
Happy birthday ayah!  

Dear ayah, 

i may not say it often, i may not say it loud, u may not read what i wrote about you, 

but i am, 

ohh so proud to have you, as my father.

and i'm glad i am your daughter.

thank you for raising me up, 

thank you for unwaveringly supportive,

thank you for you unconditional love, 

thank you a million! 

18 days to go to hug them all!

'ALLAHUMMAGHFIRLI DZUNUBI WALIWALIDAYYA, 

WARHAMHUMA KAMA ROBBAYANI SOGHIRO'

'Ya Allah, Ampunilah dosa-dosaku, serta kedua ibu bapaku, dan kasihanilah mereka berdua sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidiku pada masa kecil'

May Allah bless you always ayah. 

Don't worry, birthday present da ada, hehe

pemergianmu suatu kehilangan

bismillah. 

life's unpredictable. Sometimes good things happen, and sometimes bad things happen. But whether good or bad, everything happens for a reason. Although, sometimes it can be difficult  to accept it. 

it was a shocking news to hear Paklang has left us. 

Sudden heart attack.

Mt Noor Abu Bakar  

Alfatihah

it was the shocking news that brought me to tears. 

takziah maklang dan abg syazwan

Paklang, 

when i was little, he used to address me his pretty girl 

every time he came by to our house, he'll always teased me whenever he won the game that he came up with.

and now, when i'm a grown up teenager, he'll always asked me whether i have a special friend, and he'll say, 'takpe, paklang boyfriend kakcik' 

and he never forget to motivates us and generously giving some pocket money for school

and paklang always said 'kakcik nanti jadi doktor rawat paklang'

maaf paklang, kakcik tak sempat

....

Alfatihah

last summer (2years ago), i stayed at his house in Ipoh, with my cousin, Ainina ; accompanying him while maklang was admitted to the hospital. We stayed there for almost a week, and thats the time where we became good friends. Every night, paklang brought us to food stalls and he shared a lot about his life experience. He's a marine. He has traveled all around the world, and his favorite pitstop harbour is Yaman. 

Once grandma told me, the most mischievous in the family was him. And that trait didnt get old, it was clearly evidence in him even though paklang is in his fifties.

Paklang, 

there's so many things that i can write about you. 

you'll always be remembered in our dearly heart 

you'll never be forgotten. 

close to our heart you will always stay loved and remembered

insyaAllah.

May Allah forgive him and place his soul among the righteous in the hereafter

May Allah rest his soul in peace

May Allah grant him Jannah

Sometimes we don't always realize how much they mean to us until they are gone. 

alfatihah

titanium

Titanium - David Guetta ft. Sia - Madilyn Bailey cover

This song, is about refusing to admit defeat, grinding and pounding your way to the top despite the fears, second guesses and self doubt that one may have

"stick and stones may break my bones....'but chains and whips excite me"

" i'm critized, but all your bullets ricochet"

"you shoot me down, but i wont fall... I am titanium"

Absolutely love this song! the lyrics are so powerful!

Dedicated to everyone out there that is subject to verbal abuse, 

Please stand strong and stay strong! 

p/s A meaningful silence is better than meaningless bullshit

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i wish i was special

what the hell im doing here, i dont belong here

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Just give me a reason, just a little bit's enough, just a second we're not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again

it's in the stars its been written in the scars on our hearts that we're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again

panic attack!!

congratulation, you've postponed your exam again. 

*clap2*

oh dear, ini rupanya perasaan org tangguh2 exam, stress!

i didnt do my radio today, i was quite lost, hmm deeply lost,

nothing stick on my head

zis is bad. 

next week is a hell week. 

monday : exercise med

tuesday : oncology

thursday : radiology

and dermatology on the following week.

hopefully, everything goes well, i just want all these exams to die. haha

boleh boleh! i can do this, 

hocus focus fatimah zaharah!

27days to go for BALIK KAMPUNG

bismillah, faiza azamta fatawakkal alallah!

Bosnia, tremendously missing you

the atmosphere

the spectacular views

the people

the life lessons learnt

the heart calming feelings felt every secs

cute babies

now here i am, 

reality is that im here in Olomouc, 

missing so badly you pretty Bosnia

semoga kita bersua kembali