Spring!!

spring has just arrived

hmmmm

'Dan siapakah yg lebih baik perkataannya daripada org yg menyeru kepada Allah dan mengerjakan kebajikan dan berkata, 

'Sungguh, aku termasuk org-org Muslim (yg berserah diri)?'

Al-Fussilat 41:33


tapi, rasa nak tampar diri sendiri berkali-kali when i didnt walk the talk.
kecewa

cry baby cry

LEMBIK GILER

BENYER NYER

EIUWHH..

menangis, benyer, cembeng, crying.

lately, there's  a lot of things came up, playing with my emotion.

Family, homesick, studies, surviving medicine, friends, heartbreak and abandonment hmm. 

last Monday, i just got slapped on my face

haha, serious, i asked kina to slap me on the face, and she really slapped me pretty hard.

And now, I'm wide awake. masih terngiang2 wave lempang ituu

*sure da lama sangat tahan nk lempang aku, lol* 

Its been pretty long i haven't cry. I rarely cry, and that day, i cried a river. 

Reality hits me darn hard.

i cried in public that time.  and i said to myself over and over again

'stop it timahh, lembiknya, lembiknya nangis'

i cried like this baby, penuh perasaan tapi masih maintain comel

I grew up with a perception that cry, sadness, grief are clinical manifestation of weakness. For those who cried, they are weak people. I'm not the only one thinking such way. we lived in this kind of reality. we're been brought up in such society. I'm adapted to this kind of perception. Agree or not, most of us, tend to suppress our grieve on our own, and hide as best as we could, and it is more chronic in men. Most of men have a firm perception that its just not manly enough to cry in front of people because it shows how weak you are.
Yup,  kengkononnya ego.
n i'm ego liddat

Reflecting the stories of one of the most popular companian of Muhammad saw, Umar Alkhattab ra, hmmm believe it or not, he was very known for his crying. He is one of the most manly man i've known in history through his inspiring and admirable stories. He is unstoppable, his bravery was undeniable, he was feared by the enemies because of his strength and his powerful influence during that times was inexplicable. He is the man for humanity. Everyone well aware how strong Saidina Umar ra and everyone well aware that he cried a lot, reminiscing his past and fear towards Allah, begging for forgiveness. He cried.

Umar cried a lot, so do we call him a weak man?

And those tears should be comforted for in him is not weakness, 

but unbelievable strength.

And...

We cry over pain. 

Sometimes i wondered, why did I cry over certain things. 

now i got my answers.

dear friends,

 pain is a pointer to our attachments. 

We're attached to family, friends, love, eager to studies and achieve good grades in exam and so many things that adhere to our hearts.
If anyone hurt our family or friends, we'll be sad
heartbreaking in love, we'll be sad
fail in studies, we'll be sad
or someone that we idolized died/hurt, we'll be sad

That which makes us cry, that which causes us most pain is where our false attachments lie. And it is those things which we are attached to as we should only be attached to Allah which become barriers on our path to God. But the pain itself is what makes the false attachment evident. 

The pain creates a condition in our life that we seek to change, and if there is anything about our condition that we don’t like, there is a divine formula to change it.
God says: “Verily never will God change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves.”
(Qur’an, 13:11)

hmm

something for me to ponder,

do I cry over Allah?

do I cry seeing our brother and sisters killed in Palestine, Syria etc

hmm

*lempang diri sendiri laju2*

dear friends,

tears are the dewdrops of solace. It melts away the hard rocks of difficulties. In sorrowful moments, when we cry in front of our close ones telling everything, or when hearing the consoling words from them, the solace we feel would be incomparable. Not in front of many, our eyes will get filled. We do so because we will have that freedom with them. They will be a fresh rain of solace with a single word, ‘don’t cry….’. Such relationships are the good fortunes and light of this life.
lepas tu banjir!! haha

When your heart is breaking and your pain makes you fail, 

Remember just remember Allah sees it all
Tears flow when we remember how much Allah has blessed us with and how much we disobey Him. We can never repay Allah for everything we have, yet we still blatantly commit sins both big and small: whether it's backbiting, hurting other human beings, not standing up for the truth, treating our family badly, lying, doing good deeds to show off, cheating, etc.

Allah opens ways out of problems for us, easing our burdens. Yet, we still disobey Him and take His Mercy for granted.

and as we all know about this hadith 

Abu Hurayrah  reported that the Messenger of Allaah  said: 
"One who weeps out of fear of Allaah, will not enter the Hell till milk returns back in the udder; and the dust raised on account of fighting in the path of Allaah and the smoke of Hell will never exist together". [At-Tirmithi].

asyik ketawa gelap hati,
sesekali nangis okay ape,
when was the last time you cried like a baby?

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too many life mistakes
strong feeling of running away to Jupiter, 

but i know His mercy is beyond that.

but just too ashamed. 

Dear Allah
please make me strong 

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its really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends,
but 
its really sad when the best of friends become two strangers

dotdotdot

one of those benda2 remeh yg perlu dicantas
keep calm, istighfar and heads up!

sudah tua beliau : Bapak

happy birthday to muhammad syafik aziz, 

a person i've known for 6years so far,

a terrible joker, 

a wannabe counselor, 

another species i've known to be clumsy,

physically a man, but rich with the women's traits

kami masih lagi berkawan dengannya meskipun dia begini

but kitorang still terima dia seadanya. 

dan dia ada jugaklah trait2 boleh dipromote2

a passionate chef and baker, 

a talented writer in his blog,

a loving big brother to 4 others,

a person who always tries to improve himself to the better

a good friend in need

indeed!

may Allah bless u always, 

semoga terus bersemangat berkobar2 nak jadi lebih baik.

tapi ak kelentong 'terrible joker', kau lawak sampai boleh masuk lawak keder

 and jangan tacing2 sangat, takde hadiah so thats why i write u this xD

kahwin cepat prosim!

harapan aku, letak nama anak ko zaharah supaya dia jadi comel cam ak. 

k gurau

cau! 

Riddle weather of czech republic

subhanallah, subhanallah, subhanallah,

today its already in the beginning of April, the 3rd,

Every year at this time around, the temperatures usually start to warm up, and flowers are in bloom.

And as for myself, i was dreaming of warmer, softer breezes and the first signs of spring since yesterday, it was pretty sunny here. It really was a nice weather cycling back home. hehe

And today, the wind, it was howling,
the snow was outrageous 

and blows diagonally!

*speechless*

subhanallah

pic taken last friday : unexpected weather on that day as well

After several months of frigid weather, most of us, especially 1st year students become anxious for the signs of spring. hehe, felt the same thing before, but this year tricky-monkey weather is definitely a fresh reminder by Him to us.

He mentioned in Quran,

'Kun fayakun!

Be, and it is be!

When He wills something to exist, it exist, 

snapp, just like that

so, if theres a question mark in our head, asking , why does the weather plays tricks on us this year?

the reason is just easy peasy 

Kun fayakun!

Self-challenge #2 bergelongsor di atas tikar putih

i went to snowboard yesterday, and this was my 1st time snowboarding in Czech Republic . hmm to be exact, this was my 1st time since i was born to this life. Actually, it was quite unexpected planning. I was supposed to join KAISER in Ireland with Kina, Sara, Syer, Azreen and Aeisyah. still, sedih tak dapat join, just because my visa tak siap lagi :( 


On friday, i heard from Amri that Paan was planning to go snowboarding the next day, so apelagi, tak pernah lagi try snowboarding. So, memang redah je la haha! 

I am quite far behind among my friends who already been here for several times, hehe i'm a proud newbies.i dont mind about that, its never too late to try something new right? moreover, Czech winter is a tricky-monkey! it is so unpredictable. So, thats why tak pergi-pergi dari dulu. *alasan ntah pape*

overall,

what i can say, it really was a mind-blowing activity! Blast! Pop pop pop! Awesome! 

truly exhilarating!
okes, my endorphine level is at peak right now while writing this, lol.
but, for the skateboarding part,
it was hilarious but frustrating at the first time.

bukan main seronok lagi kanak-kanak ribena ini

Snowboarding is just piece of cake to these Czech people, since most of them play at early age. Memang bila jejak kaki sampai di Ramzova, perasaan inferior terus menyelubungi diri. Kemain lagi budak-budak ni rileks je sliding and skiing from the top like a pro! During winter season, there are a lot of adrenaline pumping activities offered here and there, for example, snowboarding, skiing, cross-country ski, oemjayyyy, there are so much more!  urghh, jeles tengok baby2 czech ni, nak pro jugak macam uols! hmm bukan baby2 czech sahaja, kena beat atuk nenek ni jugak!!


huahuahua

for a beginner like me, memang tak normal la kalau terus pro.zzzz.  Beruk takkan la lahir2 terus terer memanjat pokok kan. thanks to sifu Paan, he taught me how to snowboard ,with full of patience and perseverance. thank you sifu! *clap2* He said, when you're imbalance, let your butt hits the ground first. hahaha, i  was like, hmmmmm berguna aku ternak lemak tebal2 di situ selama bertahun-tahun ni


i wonder, if there is a butt cushion for snowboarding that can comes in handy, lol


it really was a memorable times. with falls all over the place, catching edges several times, several accidents hitting some czech kids depan kepala mata parents dorang, sendiri, and last but not least,
the embarrassing moment when  snowboard  slide down on its own, sampai terpaksa ada budak czech cepat2 slide down to help me getting back that snowboard, aduyaiiii,
 ALHAMDULILLAH, once i could stand up, heelside came pretty easy, muscle memory i guess. On that steep of a hill, its easy to just lean back, and the slope holds you up, i was going back and forth, playing with my toe edge. The slides was not pretty, but still in control and, now i'm more obsessed than ever!

tengok betapa poyonya, Paan the Pro-coach, managed to catch some pictures,


Gedik-ism syndrome

 bukti tunjuk kat oneng-oneng nenek pernah main snowboard dulu2. hehehe 

and alhamdulillah,
there was no major injury reported. lol. But i'm pretty sure that today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, all i can remember about these days will be pain. *exaggeration*


gosh
i'm more obsessed with snowboarding now. this definitely a-must-do activity every winter. serious! naik sampai 7 kali even though i can feel my body started to ache all over signalling that i need to stop. Next year, insyaAllah, if He wills, nak pergi main dengan kawan2 Geng Budak Baik. We did plan to go snowboarding last winter with geng budak baik, but Allah tak mengizinkan utk pergi sama2 this year. nanti kita pergi sama-sama okes gang!



last but not least. kami sempat posing kamehameha, that Dragon ball Goku's signature attack. kartun favourite utk melanguk depan tv every weekend waktu kecik. Paan, amri and Bella layan je kerenah saya. terima kasih rakan-rakan. hehehehe

berikut adalah bukti penting bahawa Siti Fatimah Zaharah dan Siti Nabila pernah bersekolah di Turtle School

Bella now knows Super Saiya secret weapon

u can call me Gohan now.lol

  

akhirnya kami pulang ke kampung Olomouc setelah bertarung di medan tikar putih

the evidence of full throttle even though it was just half day. before and after pics :P


cau!