Solitude

"Solitude is not the absence of Love"

"Without solitude, Love will not stay long by your side.

Because Love needs to rest as well, so that it can journey through the heavens and reveal itself in other forms.Without solitude, no plant or animal can survive, no soil can remain productive for any length of time, no child can learn about life, no artist can create, no work can grow and be transformed.

Solitude is not the absence of Love, but its complement. Solitude is not the absence of company, but the moment when our soul is free to speak to us and help us decide what to do with our life.Therefore, blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge.

If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself. And if you do not know yourself, you will begin to fear the void.But the void does not exist. A vast world lies hidden in our soul, waiting to be discovered. There it is, with all its strength intact, but it is so new and so powerful that we are afraid to acknowledge its existence.

Just as Love is the divine condition, so solitude is the human condition. And for those who understand the miracle of life, those two states peacefully coexist."

Paulo Coelho. 
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What Is Your Subconscious Obsessed With?

try this quiz from playbuzz website, and find out what actually going on inside your brain, wuuu~~

I got this one,  

Your subconscious is obsessed with nature! 

The pictures you have chosen paint the picture (get it?) that you are obsessed with nature. From a very early age you've felt a strong connection with animals and nature. You've always loved camping, traveling, hiking and just exploring the beautiful world that surrounds us. For you, nature is this beautiful, magical place where everything makes sense. There are simple rules and adventure is always waiting for you just around the river-bend. 

Your subconscious makes you think about traveling while doing grocery shopping, cooking, walking down the street and especially while working. And if you could, you would leave everything and go to travel around the world. 

YAY!!! Biarkan daku bersatu bersama alam

you can call me miss superwoman

Being strong is to love someone in silence, to radiate happiness when you are unhappy, to forgive someone who doesn't deserve forgiveness , to stay calm in moments of despair, to show joy when we do not feel it, to smile when we want to cry, to make someone happy when our own heart is broken, to be silent when we feel like screaming our anguish, to comfort when we need to be comforted and to have faith when we do no longer believe.

its hard, damn hard. but i'll try

Reasons, i wish i can always see the 'hikmah' behind things

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. 

i sometimes do get annoyed by the saying, everything happens for a reason'. For once i find it to be rather sappy thou i'm not a particularly sappy person. More importantly, i've never thought the sentiment is true. i thought some things  just happen. There's no rhyme or reason to them. They just happen. The more i think about it, the more i think about it, the more i've become to realize i was wrong. Everything does happen for a reason.

the famous Quran verse, Allah wants us to wonder; 

'but it may happen that you hate a thing which is good for you, and it may happen that you love a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows, you know not'   2:216

And sometimes things happen that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first. but in reflection, we find out that without overcoming those obstacles you've never realized your potential, strength, willpower and heart. 

haha, everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of our soul. with these small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight flat road to nowhere. it will be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. hmmm

during these 5 years of medical school, i've been through a lot of failures, haha tak pass exam , heart broken etc2. These people i've met have affected me so much in my life. The success and downfall experienced, help to create of who i am and who i've become now. Even the bad experiences which probably the most poignant and important one; i've learned so much more from it. If someone breaks + hurts + betrays you, Forgive! for them they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to when you open your heart. if someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you but because in a way, they are teaching you to love, and how to open your heart and eyes to things. yes, every day count!'

haha amazing as it sounds, it is true. it's taken me a long time to see hikmah behind things. Alhamdulillah, this has become a very strong principle in me, i see that even the worst disaster- there are wonderful gifts, hidden opportunities or life enhancing lessons. Alhamdulillah. we couldn't have gotten them any other way. Allah is the best planner, He plans perfectly, according to how we can weigh them. 

knowing that there's a reason for what happens also save you from being filled with blame. Yup, blame is a human attempt to make sense of some catastrophe, though we hate the way it feels. and yet when something bad happens to us, its almost a reflex to thing,, we blame ourselves too much as well. we blame other people and then we end up with the sense that the world is full of bad people. We blame ourselves and then instead of feeling healthy, strong and whole we see ourselves as sick, weak, and broken. then we blame life itself. What could be more demoralizing that feeling condemned to having bad things always happen to us and not being able to do anything about it. 

haha, you know, blame is like a boomerang that loops around and bonks us on the noggin. instead, try this, if you see someone struggling with sadness, anxiety and negativity, listen, listen to that person's story. You'll soon see he's living in a world where all he sees are things to blame because he lives without positive meanings for what's happened to him. The only cure is to restore the sense that there is a good reasons for everything that happens

aaah, alhamdulillah, now i am just going to appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that i possibly can, coz i may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and listen. I've learned that listen is one of the survival kit of life. yes, break free fatimah zaharah, let myself fall in love, do something new, set sights high! woot2!! most importantly, if you love someone, tell them. especially family, kawan2, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store. i'm sorry dear friends, thats why i'm extra gedix. bare with me k! and finally enjoy looking forward to learning a new lesson each day and enjoying the journey!

Sometimes 'bad' things happen to 'good people, bak kata Yasmin mogahed, it is us who define what is good and bad. Good Muslims sees everything good. coz sometimes 'bad' things are truly outward moments of difficulty in comparison to the good Allah has in store and is preparing for that person to experience, when the time and moment are right.

'When Allah tests you, it is never to destroy you. Whenever He removes something from your possessionm it is only to empty your hands for an even better gift'

-Ibn al Qayyim

Everything happens for a reason and Allah has bigger plan for us that we might not know at the moment =)