secret

today, i read surah an-Nahl, page 269

He mentioned in Quran twice about secret.

twice.

And Allah knows what you conceal and what you declare (16:19)

Assuredly, Allah knows what they conceal and what they declare. 

Indeed, He does not like the arrogant

deep

deep 

deep

i kept secrets for myself, about a lot of things.
He knows it. He knows it. He knows it. 

but He never reveal it, Oh Lord, You are the Most Merciful. 

Help me to leave sins that i hardly leave.  

i am weak. i disobeyed You.

but You keep giving me Your Love and Generosity.

PPG : negative card game

hari ini dlm bulatan gembira, we played this one game. There was no particular name for this game, but i named it 'negative card game' 

how to play?

use different coloured paper, sync with total number of your usrahmate.

eg PPG = 9people, = 9different coloured paper are used, divide it to 9 small parts

so everyone will have 9 pieces of 1 coloured paper (**my card colour is royal blue)

put your names to the corner of the paper, but write it in a very small font

the task are :

-switch cards with your usrahmate --> you wont have your own card

-put down a sentence (minimum) of what you dislike about that person on the card

 **the initial task was minimum of 3 sentence, but we refused, since everyone was having    hard time to think of one point. haha)

-last but not least, after finish brainstorming, take back your own card 

it took us almost 30minutes brainstorming on negative side of each person.

this task was way harder than having chemistry exam during my 1st year, lol 

i dont have any dislikes upon these beautiful people, they are just too nice. 

i am more a sinner than them. T__T

moral behind the games?

-husnuzon

-friends evaluate us better than ourselves

-learn to accept critics and other people's opinion about you

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birthday girl, qiela hakim 

                                        

then we celebrated Qiela's birthday.

i'm so sorry Qiela. I did forget about your birthday last Saturday. please forgive my short term memory loss. so i made you blueberry chocolate cake. even the frosting and deco wasn't pretty. i am so sorry for my imperfection =(

may Allah shower His countless blessings and happiness in dunya and in the hereafter upon you!

sayang buddy! 

Angina

chest pain = angina pectoris

its coming back

forgive and forget. 

easily forgives but hardly forgets

Let go of things that makes you sad

EMIRA NUR SHAFINA

40days.

an awesome 40 days.

to my dearest EMIRA NUR SHAFINA 

oh what joy it is to have a friend like you

for giving me strength the way you do

i can't give solutions to all of life's problems, fears and doubts,

but i can listen to you and together we will search for answers

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain or future with its untold stories,

but i can be there when you need me to care

i can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

but i can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place

A friend is someone to turn to when spirits need a lift. 

A friend is someone I treasure for our friendship is a gift

A friend is someone who fills our lives with beauty,joy and grace

And makes the whole world we live in a better and happier place

thank you for being my friend emeyyy!

may Allah shower His blessing upon you!

ana uhibbukifillah!

rindu teramat

Self-challenge #1 New Love

Berbekalkan semangat waja, adrenalin dirasakan begitu laju mengalir dalam darah, mahu aku tingkatkan stamina, semata-mata ingin menawan Gunung Kinabalu balik cuti Jun ni, aku bulatkan tekad, kena hari-hari kayuh basikal. Walaupun aku tahu, kejadahnya la siti fatimah zaharah ni pergi sekolah naik basikal meredah salji meskipun sudah ada kemudahan bas dan tram, tapi apakan daya, persetankan itu semua! 

ok2, enough of the poyoness. 

its already the 2nd week of neuro. but, i felt i'm running out of catecholamines. With a bit of courage of Lara Croft and Anne Hathaway as Cat woman, i felt alive riding my tiny bicycle to school. 

i must say, i'm falling in love with bike riding now. Its a new cool to me. When riding a bicycle, you notice the sights and sounds, that I almost always, miss when i'm on the bus or tram. And I get a whole new perspective on the environment here. It gives me a chance  to feel the white fluffy snow hitting on my face, even though my teeth couldn't stop chattering. 

Thank you Allah for another beautiful day. I'm thankful for waking up to another beautiful day. What a gorgeous day here in Olomouc. The clear blue sky made the air feel clean and fresh. Even though last night, it was a bit stormy, but snow shimmering in the sunlight early this morning. It really was mesmerizing and amazing. There was no better way to experience the beauty than on a bicycle.

before this, I've come to realize that I have a very powerful tendency to fall asleep in class. 

But now, I've found my antidote!

.

moje univerzita

woot woot, 

cu, ni dulu sekolah nenek kat olomok

#funfact Palacky university

-the 2nd oldest university in Czech, after Charles Uni in Prague

-the oldest university in Moravia 

-Gregor Mendel, the famous scientist of Genetics/ Father of Genetics studied here! same  goes with Karel Slaviček (Czech famous sinologist and made the 1st precise map of Beijing)

-currently, there are 8 faculties ; 

*Fac of Medicine and Dentistry (is where i'm currently studying, wohoo)

*Sts. Cyril and Methodius Fac of Theology

*fac of Health Science

*fac of Philosophy

*Fac of Science

*Fac of Education

*Fac of Physical Culture

*Fac of Law 

-before this Palacky Uni was named as

Olomouc College, Jesuit College, Jesuit University,State Uni (relocate in Brno),Lyceum ,Francis University 

-current name of this uni ,Palacky University is to honor the 'father of the Nation' -> FRANTIšEK PALACKY, famous 19th century Moravian history and Politician

the crowd: wahahah bajet giler nak jugokkk! me : harusla!!

p/s i only have 2years and a half left to be here in Olomouc. hoboi hoboi!  the time is killing me, VALUE YOUR TIME timah!!!

Lempuk and dodol

Alhamdulillahhh.  

LEMPUK AND DODOL DURIAN IN CZECH!! 

Ate this during iftar today.
I am truly grateful ya Allah. 
Alhamdulillah

p/s : thanks to Kinah and kakak kinah, kak piah =)

:'(

Just got slapped on my face.

Let gone be by bygone.

Forgive and forget. Easy to say. It's hard.

i was so sleepy during the lecture, and i touched the home screen button.
my heart stumbled for a secs

i was in my Neurology lecture at the moment.

Heart beat feeling like it is pounding very hard. 

Forgive and forget fatimah zaharah. 

Keep reminding myself, if we want Allah to forgive us, we should be forgiving of others and willing to overlook their wrong.

Good things, blessings and happiness will come to you. 

assalamualaikum

Random

Kadang-kadang , secara tak mena-mena, boleh rasa nak menangis bila teringat kisah lama engkau dan dia

Mood disorder

Today psychiatry lecture was about mood disorder.

What is mood?  It is a state of emotion.  And it has function: 1. Evaluating 2. regulating

Classification of emotion;
1.  Polarity = +ve # -ve
                   =Pleasurable and unpleasant
                   =stenic and astenic

2. Quality : vegetative symptoms
                   =lower/high

3.intensity and duration
Mood :long term, sustained, overall emotional tuning
Affect:
Passion: long term

Emotion
-excessive development of higher emotions
-deficiency of higher social emotion
   #social bluntness
   #moral insanity
-impairment of ethnical emotions
  #deprivation
  #degradation
-impairment of estethical emotions

Impairment of affect (acute state)
#pathic
#blunted
#uncontrolled
#affective stupor and inhibitions
#affect with extended latency
#affectice raptus

Impairment of emotions
1. Expansive- manic,  euphoric, aesthetic, resonant,  moria, dysphoric
2. Depressive -anhedonic (state which  are unable to feel pleasant feelings which were felt during the past #sex #food #games eg. Major and acute depression disorder) morose (depressive irratibilty, unpleasant feeling), depressive, helpless, apethetic (lack of interest)
3. Anxious, phobia
Phobia:Feer of special reasons
Anxious: unpleasant feeling without reasons
4. Stuctural impairment of emotion
#ambivalence : 2 opposite wants at the same seconds (love and hate someone at the same time)
#bluntness
#lability -typical for border line disorder, narcistic
#incontinency -emotions came from the body without reasons
#incongruence -I feel empathy at the same time I dont want to have this feeling
#alextitymia -somatic, feel to express emotions

Normophiria = normal emotional level. Sometimes goes higher/lower

Maniodepressive disorder/bipolar mood depression

Mania-long and wide wave, many delusion *compare to euphoria-just few hours
-hypomania (adik beradik mania)

Euphoria, hypomania, mania
Eg. Hypomania-symptoms same with mania but weaker, and intensity is lower
Mania-
Depression-2weeks of duration

Mood disorder according to ICD
F30- manic episode (1 week)
F31-bipolar affective disorder
F32-depressive episode+ (no manic episodes)
F33-recurrent depressive episode
F34-persistent mood disorder
     ● cyclothymia - between subdepresion and hypomania (mild state of depression)
     ● dysthimia - undulation between normal and subdepresion at a very long period

Symptom of depression
★mood impairment- sadness or anxiety
★motor impairment- inhibition (retardation)
-agitation (anxiety)
★thinking and speech: form= bradypsychism or delay
#bradypsychism Slow thinker of reaction, emotion
Content:: catathymia , loss of interest, anergy, self-accusation,  hypomnesia, loss of concentration,  abulia (eg during exm period,do something else instead of studying), indecisiveness,  suicidal ideation,  ahedonia 

--> micromanic delusion (blaming yourself too much, guilt)

★physical symptoms
#sleep and daily fluctuation -terminal insomnia , morning worsening!!!
#decrease libido
#loss of appetite , weight loss (more than 5%)

Depression- not only mood impairment

Ghanian Cuisine anyone?

Today my dearie Ghanian friend, Okaikor Okantey invited me and Farhana for dinner.

Dinner : Ghanian cuisine. 

Jollof rice + plaintain + steamed chicken

i would say that this is one type of Nasi Goreng, but its originate from West Africa. According to Aakor, Jallof rice is common throughout West Africa, but it originates from Ghana. I would say that the popularity of Jallof rice in Ghana can compete with how we, Malaysians love Nasi Lemak.

anyway, da mintak da resepi dari okaikor. 

bila la nak dapat ni

the challenge

My energy levels are running pretty low lately. Probably due to the fact that i've been leaving the habit of jogging, or running on the treadmill in the gym, or futsal etc. Here lately, I've been really dwelling on the hard parts of my new, healthier lifestyle.I've decided to make a list of the awesome things and put it out there! 

So, I'm mapping out a plan for getting more healthy and eating better and exercising. 

Here are some list of it.

• craving a salad, even when other stuff is available. 
• Adds proteins, to keep me fuller longer
• Zumba, join these Olomouc girls, but usually Friday night is my usrah session. hmmm
• Get FIT!!!!! -jog,jog,jog,bike,jog,bike, Its ridiculous how unfit I am now!
• Cut off sugar! too much sugar makes my skin unhappy
• To get back eating like a 'normal' person, dont starve! 
• Emotional breakthroughs!
• Making a playlist of Home workout from YouTube
• making a playlist of my favorite songs during my home workout session
• be a positive thinker, start to cultivate affirmative thoughts, minimize negetive self-talk
• cope with stress better
• Trying out new things, life as a medical student is pretty boring at most times. :P So, doing something thrilling and challenging should make my life a bit more interesting. Give me SOMETHING TO WORK TOWARDS!!

*panjang nye map kauuu haha*

 

The mind starts wonder when the body is kept cooped up!!

p/s : jangan kau hangat-hangat tahi ayam sudah 

USK : 13.2.2013

anak kak nik pon join usrah. hehe sgt comel!!

Part 1 : Hadis 8 by Sara Hanapi
tema : asasi seorang Muslim

عَنِ ابْنِ عُمَر رَضِيَ الله عَنْهُمَا، أَنَّ رَسُوْلَ الله صَلَّى الله عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ قَالَ: ((أُمِرْتُ أَنْ أُقَاتِ لَ

النَّاسَ حَتَّى یَشْهَدُوا أَنْ لا إِلَهَ إِلاَّ الله، وَأَنَّ مُحَمَّدًا رَسُوْلُ اللهِ، وَیُقِيْمُوا الصَّلاةَ، وَیُؤْ تُو ا

الزَّآَاةَ. فَإِذَا فَعَلُوا ذَلِكَ عَصَمُوا مِنِّي دِمَاءَهُمْ وَأَمْوَالَهُمْ إِلاَّ بِحَقِّ الإِسْلاَمِ، وَحِسَابُهُمْ عَلَى ا للهِ

تعالى)) رواه البخاري ومسلم.

Daripada lbnu 'Umar r.a. رضي الله عنهما bahawa Rasulullah SAW telah bersabda:

Aku telah diperintahkan supaya memerangi manusia sehingga mereka naik saksi bahawa sesungguhnya tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan bahawa sesungguhnya Muhammad utusan Allah, sehingga mereka mendirikan sembahyang dan membayar zakat. Apabila mereka telah berbuat demikian, maka mereka telah memelihara darah mereka dan harta mereka daripada aku, melainkan dengan hak lslam, dan hisab perhitungan amal mereka terserah kepada Allah Ta'ala.

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Points of the hadith : 

1. Kewajiban berperang -utk menegakkan Islam ,

                                           -kepada sesetengah golongan manusia --> xbayar zakat, xsolat

2.pelihara harta dan darah kepada golongan yang patuh perintah

3.hukuman mati kepada golongan a) berzina bagi yg sudah bernikah

                                                              b) bunuh orang lain dengan sengaja

                                                              c) meningggalkan agama dan jemaah dgn sengaja

Part 2 : Sahabat by me : Saidina Umar r.a

HAZIQ Bday Boy

Happy birthday haziq ibrahim

Moga diberkati dunia akhirat

Neuro 1st week

done with Neuro 1st week. 1st week was quite nice, we had Dr Klosova, she is a very cool person. She reminds me of the singer, Pink. #seriouslySerious

anyway, i'm looking forward for Neuro lessons next week. Aku sudah mulai cintak sama blok neuro, hopefully ini bukan cinta biasa. 

lagi sekali timah, jgn hangat hangit tahi ayam.

fighting!!

ATIYYAH HISHAMUDDIN

I really enjoy being friends with Atie

She is one independent girl, bright, 

and 

1 happy girl who just love to do anything adrenaline rush.
yeah , she is one adrenaline junky monkey!

Definitely gonna miss you atie!

all the best with your future undertakings! 

always be positive k and never give up!

good luck with your upcoming final exam! 

and may Allah shower His countless blessings upon you!

#QoTD 

'I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happiest girl is the prettiest girl. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and i believe in miracles' - Audrey Hepburn-

true indeed, 'HAPPIEST GIRL IS THE PRETTIEST GIRL! 

:) 

Homeless at the airport

Today's experience was awesome!! It took me 24Hrs of journey going back home, from Cardiff, London and finally arriving here Olomouc. 

#TheArtOfChallengingMyself

Summer Semester

#working out 3x /week

#Going to school by bicycle

#be more independent

#read Neurology Queens Square book

#eat healthily 

#Wake up early in the morning

#call ibu ayah every fortnight